Commitment

You came into my life and I couldn't believe my eyes

Gave me the real you, didn't come wearing a disguise

Never had a woman NOT put up a facade to get with me

It's like they were trying to be what they thought was important to me

But you were different, you didn't care what I thought

I loved the fact that other people's opinions you never sought

It's like you were sayin, "take me for who I am, or leave me alone"

That very attitude is what kept me stuck on the phone

It's been a couple years since I last heard of you

It's better that way, lets me forget the hurt that I put on you

You see, I never did it on purpose I didn't know how to handle

The realness maybe became too real

I was scared of what I was beginning to feel

I could see it in your eyes, the way you looked at me

Like if you were ready to begin a new life with me

You treated me like royalty, and you deserved it back

I was too immature to learn to deal with that

I replay the day where you made it known that you wanted me all for you

I remember scrambling through my words and not knowing what to do

I gave you a vague answer and I knew you saw through it

I had no idea how bad those words put you through it

Until I saw the tears roll down your face, it broke me inside

That's my problem, my emotions I always tried to hide

After that day I vowed to myself to always say what I'm feeling no matter what

Look, the problem was never really you

I wasn't leading you on, I felt somethin too

I had a previous similar situation where I said yes to commitment

But that's where I messed up, I should've really looked up what commit meant

I hurt that person for not being what a boyfriend should've
To be honest, I wouldn't change anything even if I could've

Those long texts you sent me right after, saying that you couldn't believe

It cut me so deep like you wouldn't believe

I never regret anything but damn this is close to it

I lost someone I cared about because to commit, I just couldn't do it

I just didn't think it was fair to you to only give you a part of me

You wanted the whole but I couldn't provide

Till this day it eats me up inside

In reality, I'm glad we crossed paths, you taught me so much

You brought out the better side of me

I hope you're doin well wherever you're at

What I learned from you I can never pay back

I'm sorry for the hurt I caused

Just know, you guided to a better path this soul that was once lost.