Surface

People talk about me and say 'he's a good guy'

I'd like to think I am and carry myself that way

But I have these scars that don't allow me to live a lie

I may be nicer than most but my closet is full

I open that door and the skeletons say 'Who you tryin' to fool?'

I don't put up a front, but people see me smile and think it's all OK

And it is, my family is good and I have what I need

Doesn't mean that on the inside I can't bleed

They say we change as we get older

I already see it, I'm a little colder

I stopped valuing any potential relationship

All I did was play through it as if to perfect my gamesmanship

Along the way my integrity was being chipped away with every encounter

It's like I forgot about my personal beliefs and just said f**k it

Began getting attention from married women and I loved it

How hypocritical of me, going against everything I believe in

I evolved into someone I didn't know, I left the old me on the shelf

I looked in the mirror and couldn't recognize myself

I did things I never thought I was capable of

But I was mentally weak, and giving into temptation was all it ever was

I can't say I didn't enjoy my adventures of the forbidden

I just knew this wasn't a honest and healthy lifestyle to be livin'

I forgot how it felt to have inner peace again

I needed to get that back to achieve bigger and better things

Where even the biggest tragedies only feel like small stings

To get back to the old me and save some self respect, I reflected

Got back up, the advances and temptations I easily rejected

Feel like the old me again, back on my fast track to realizing my life's purpose

Just remember, even if everything looks good, not all is what it seems on the surface.