The New

"They say to be able to get over the old you need the new

It's real easy to say but hard to do

It can take days, weeks, months or a year

The next time you'll see that smile from ear to ear

All it takes is that new love

It comes when you need it most, like it was sent from above

You get that feeling again with the butterflies

Just by simply looking in their eyes

You quickly want to give 'em your all but naturally you hold back

Still a little hesitant because the pieces of your heart you're trying to put back

Making comparisons that's always the norm

Never be afraid, the new is the umbrella that helps to weather the storm

Time is all it takes for you to open up, it can take long

Filled with all these doubts & they continue to prove you wrong

Making it easier for you to love again

It'll all just come from within

The new can be the glue, only if you let it happen

Just don't blame them for the troubles you experienced back then

Let it run its course & don't worry

You never know, being together can be the beginning to your "happily ever after" story."

My Inspiration

"I'm often asked why I don't love anymore

It's not that I don't, I just care for one more
She's been there since day one it's true
And momma that's you

The emotional backbone of my life

You often tell me there aren't many women that are worth the strife

I don't know where I would be if you weren't as strong 

Grateful because you've been with us all along

Seen my ups and definitely my downs

Used to always tell us there was no need to frown

Telling us it's not as bad as we think

You always holdin' the boat up making sure we didn't sink

I never complained about what we didn't have

You showed us to appreciate the little things

I remember music being your escape when I would hear you sing

I knew you hurt more than we ever did & even that never stopped you

With your drive and positivity no one can top you

Those long hour days you used to work

Trying to show you what it actually was worth

The sacrifices you make I am forever grateful
You taught me to always remain faithful
This is why I work as hard as I do
So that one day you wouldn't have to

Seeing you smile means more than anything

I'm trying to repay you for everything

I don't tell you I love you as much you should hear it

With my heart you're the only woman near it."

Never Forgotten

"Sittin on this park bench thinkin' about the past

Wonderin' where the time went by so fast

I think I'm alone but my thoughts flow freely

Too much goin' on feelin like I'm knee deep

Most days I think about my deceased high school friends

Remembering their faces and asking God why he needed 'em

All I can think is he needed some young angels to oversee with him
Tony, Adan, Raymond, Gladys how can I forget you?
With your deaths it's like a part of me died too
This place just isn't the same without you
I would trade any material possessions to have you back in a heartbeat
All to just have that again, your hearts beat
All the good times we had is what I miss
The only things I'm left with are the memories so I often reminisce
It's just tough realizing that you're gone
Me walking this earth without you just feels so wrong

Thinking about seein' you in your casket

Hugging your sobbing parents while we walked together passed it

Them saying they're supposed to be the ones getting buried

Sad because they won't be able to see their children get married

Or get to experience what it's like to be a parent

You're constantly on my mind, isn't it apparent?

Wish you can join me on the adventures I take

Like telling God I think he made a mistake
Too soon you guys left this earth
Too many of us are too caught up in what certain things are worth
There's no set price on this thing we take for granted called life

I know you all watch over me and what I do

I can feel you all around me, I don't need a clue

All I ask is for you to continue to guide me through each sin

Hold it down up there, I love you, 'till we meet again."

Suffer

"Why do we suffer?

Are we truly bad people or do we just not understand

Is it to make us stronger & tougher?

Or is it to see how much pain we can withstand

We often look for ways to cope

And frequently we come up short

Salty tears stream down our faces

Wishin' we were in different places

The smile then stops to show

And you begin to wonder

Am I just aiming too low?

Or is it all just rain and no thunder

We change our ways to try and live better

But even then it's like the tears get wetter

This is for those that have the biggest hearts

The ones that don't shy away even when people are throwing poisoned darts

The ones that suffer because they care so much, never change, there's better times ahead

Letting you know that you're not alone with the tears you shed."